Soundtrack to life: Daylight, Duncan Sheik

Oh man, I don't want to clean my room. Its so messy. So bad. But me and the roomie are going to rearrange and redecorate (when hell freezes over) and its going to be awesome.

I need to:
-figure out how to fill up my views page before deadline so I'm not screwed
-do yoga
-clean my room
-do laundry
-apply for that internship
-apply for other summer jobs besides the one I really really want
-NOT fall in love
-call my mom
-pray for a billion different things
-get better from this stupid cold
-do something nice for someone else
-figure out how to download music onto my non-iPod iPod.

Ack! Someone's at the door!

Ok, now it's the next day... I consoled a friend regarding his stupidity involving a girl, fed him lots of comfort food, and then a bunch of us watched AI and then played Settlers and I nearly won but Jordan schooled us in the end.

My mom said that I need to go to the doctor and get antibiotics because this cold has been going on for more than a week. Ug. I just want to lay on the couch and snuggle with a blanket or a friend and read or watch tv and drink tea. But I'm supposed to go rock climbing later and I went yesterday and I had no energy whatsoever. Now I just want to go back to bed...

HTML, pffft

More like H-T-M-crap.

I wish I spoke computer languages.

I wish I spoke more than one language.

I wish I spoke English.

I wish I would speak.

I wish I could shut up.

I wish the person others see and the person I am were the same.

You can't always get what you want... but if you try sometimes, you just might find you get what you need.

The world is full of fools and performers.

More and more frequently... you know. You know.

Why must love and love conflict? Why break a heart? Better safe than sorry, I say. Stay solid. Keep your chin up, kid.

I'm angry that beauty is intrinsically valuable, and people are loved for their physical beauty, and whose choice was it? Tell me an answer to THAT. Why would God make some people more intrinsically valuable than others? WHY? Why did some of us just sort of miss out arbitrarily? Are we not good enough? Perhaps we couldn't be trusted with the challenges that accompany great beauty, and God entrusted it to stronger, wiser souls than ours? Or perhaps its a scaled-down version of Calvinism: the elect get beauty, and the rest are screwed. I don't understand. I don't know why I have to hurt inside for something that shouldn't matter because it wasn't my choice.
But people hurt all the time because of things outside of their control, right? The important thing is to trust God. But I just want to question him until he gives me an answer about this whole beauty thing. WHY? What is beauty and why do some people have it and others don't? And what about inner beauty? Beauty of spirit and character? HUH?
Something about fallenness... we more easily recognize tangible sins because our perspective is based on embodiment. So we think that sins of the flesh are worse than sins of the mind, and beauty of the flesh is better than beauty of the heart. Ok, that makes sense.
I wish, then, that I were blind.
No, that's taking the easy way out. To take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing, end them...

Average Day

Woke up this morning to the sound of an alarm clock ringing in my ear
I rubbed my eyes, glanced at my clock
hit my roommate Jamie in the head with a sock
Rolled out of bed, got to my feet and started a new week.
It's an average day and nothing really stands out,
I'm just skating on the same route.
I'm feeling fine, I've got nothing to complain about.
I'm on my way it's just an average day.
On my way to my art history class I saved 5 people from drowning in a lake.
When I got home I got a call from a man we all call the president.
He wanted advice, I told him I can't help. I'm busy!
It's an average day and nothing really stands out,
I'm just skating on the same route.
I'm feeling fine, I've got nothing to complain about.
I'm on my way it's just an average day.
I turned on the television to see what's on
but to my surprise the lottery was on T.V.
It was 4 6 36 25 and 3.
I had won 5 or 6 mil, well isn't that neat.
It's an average day and nothing really stands out,
I'm just skating on the same route.
I'm feeling fine, I've got nothing to complain about.
I'm on my way it's just an average day.
I turned off the T.V. and went to bed
after all tomorrow is a big day,
not an average day.
It's an average day and nothing really stands out,
I'm just skating on the same route.
I'm feeling fine, I've got nothing to complain about.
I'm on my way it's just an average day.

Heh heh. I always loved that song.

And then this one, too:

Five a.m
On Tuesday
Why am I up so early?
Drive out to
Santa Ana
'Cause I've got jury duty
No breakfast
Short temper
And I cut my head shaving
10 miles out
I hit traffic
Some days just not worth saving

You know I haven't had the best of days
But I want to stop and thank you anyway

At the courthouse
I waited
And waited, then I waited
At lunchtime
My car stalled out
I couldn't get it started
Read a book by C.S. Lewis
I finished the last page
Slept on my desk 3 hours
Just like my high school days and

You know I haven't had the best of days
But I want to stop and thank you anyway
(chorus)

{CHORUS}
'Cause every single moment when I sleep
And you're awake Is your creation
And what you made is good
I don't always thank you for the rough days
And the hard times in my life,
Even though I should

I got home and
Decided
I'd be in a bad mood and
My shy and quiet wife said she
Didn't like my attitude
Got a call from
My mother
Forgot my sister's birthday
I'm a lousy older brother
Safe to say I had a bad day

I know I haven't had the best of days
But I want to stop and thank you anyway


Mmmm. Music = good.